February 2012
46 posts
There are very few people that will show the compassion and un judgmental love that I was shown today. You may be hard and bitchy on the outside, but Dan, you are one of the most loving people I know.
Thank you.
lypophrenia: a feeling of sadness seemingly without a cause
drapetomania: an overwhelming urge to run away
escapism: a mental desire to retreat from unpleasant realities through fantasy
wanderlust: a desire to travel, to understand one’s very existence
dysania: the state of finding it difficult to get out of bed in the morning
sanctuary: a small safe place in a troubling world
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Dear mom,
Did you really have to call me and tell me you we’re suicidal? And then did you really have to disappear for two days? And then….did you really have to check into a mental institution only for them to tell you that you’re psychotic? Because I could have told you that for free.
everyone: are you okay
everyone: you look tired
everyone: you look upset
everyone: you look confused
everyone: are you mad at me
everyone: what are you mad at
me: IT'S MY FAAAAAAAAACE
I hate the feeling that someone is mad at me. With people that I don’t care about I have many defense mechanisms to avoid feeling badly about not being liked. But with people close to me there is very little I can do not to break down at the thought of them being angry with me.
I feel I work very hard to be liked by the people I care about. It’s starting to wear me down and turn me...
My ideal saturday:
Having my two cats (brothers) in my room. Cuddling with them. So much love.
Enjoying a huge pot of coffee.
Sewing a new zipper into a damage expense Jack by BB Dakota dress.
Having some much needed roommate time.
Starting a new book.
Takin a bath.
Going to my sweetie’s film set and helping out.
Today has been lovely.
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Nothing sucks more than going to bed angry and waking up angry.
Things I dislike: dumb girls and a boyfriend who won’t stick up for you.
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Surprise!
What I thought would be a tame night of chocolate and wine and tv in bed…. Turns into exactly the same thing. But now I get a nice dinner first. :D.
I have been working so hard and I have so few hours to sleep but even after a 10.5 hour day I can’t seem to feel tired. Damn that 7pm coffee.
cagedlizard asked: Text me. I'm kidding. I hope all gets better.
cagedlizard asked: That sound good too. Actually, it's me mostly listening to music and I don't have a cat, but I do have a little pup. What's such a bummer tonight... if you don't mind me asking?
cagedlizard asked: Oh nooooo. :( Relaxing is watching a movie, T.V., eating, and finally chilling in bed on the lap top.
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I got the first note passed to me today since high school. The slip of hot pink paper made my day a little brighter. It feels nice to be noticed. It is a cute story and even though I have my wonderful boyfriend it feels very special to be asked out politely sometimes.
cagedlizard asked: I'm good. Just relaxing on a Friday night. :)
cagedlizard asked: How's it going?
I think some people live just to be mean.
"If you walk away I'll walk away. First tell me...
Bright eyes
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Do all liars know what they are saying isn't true?
I know when I’ve lied or embellished I have always thought “oh shit, why am I doing this?” but I’m sure there have been times where I was blissfully unaware of my words.
I wonder if she knows she lied…
“When people are ready to, they change. They never do it before then, and...”
– Andy Warhol (via irrelevantttt)
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There is nothing like being verbally bashed and misquoted on the internet by a friend. Only really a knife to the gut would feel similar.
Sometimes there is no way to communicate with someone. There are always people that have to be right. So why not let them be right. Let them be right and let them live out their life alone.
January 2012
54 posts
cagedlizard asked: :P
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