I hate the feeling that someone is mad at me. With people that I don’t care about I have many defense mechanisms to avoid feeling badly about not being liked. But with people close to me there is very little I can do not to break down at the thought of them being angry with me.

I feel I work very hard to be liked by the people I care about. It’s starting to wear me down and turn me into a person I used to be and have never liked.

I want someone to be on my side right now. To come out of their world just long enough to sympathize or possibly empathize with me. Understand where I’m coming from. Maybe hug me.